Just over 2 years ago my husband asked me to keep an upcoming Saturday free as he had some plans for that day. When I pressed him on what they might be he just told me it would be a surprise.

In theory, I like surprises, but mostly if I’m instigating them, or know a fair chunk of the detail, which limits the amount of the ‘surprise’ component contained.

Anyway, as this day approached I kept fishing for detail to give me some idea about what we were doing. What type of clothes do I need? What sort of things might I need to bring with me? Where are we going?

All I was provided was that we were leaving home at 6:45am so we wouldn’t be doing Parkrun and what I was wearing at that time (jeans and t-shirt) would be perfectly fine. The more he didn’t tell me, the more I was desperate to know.

David’s repeat message was, “just trust me” which I would quickly reassure him that I did, I simply wanted to be prepared for what might be involved in what he had planned for me.

So, in actual fact did I trust him? Did I believe that this man who has loved me for over 20 years knows me well enough to plan a surprise that I would appreciate and enjoy? Did I trust him not to put me through an experience that would bring me harm or cause me pain? And yet I still wanted to have some indication via some information, but it was frustratingly not forthcoming.

What was really at the heart of this discomfort? Simple. I was not in control and I absolutely hate that … both that I didn’t have control but more the realisation that this lack of control seems to be the cause.

I like to believe that I am not a ‘control freak’ and have worked hard to hold plans etc. with loose fingers. I have, however, been noticing there are more situations as I examine them closely that this lack of control may be a driving factor. This makes me uncomfortable and is something that I am continuing to seek to rectify.

It naturally correlates also to my relationship with God. I am quick to say that I trust His choices and plans for my life, but at the same time want to know what they are and where they will take me. Does He know me well? Absolutely. Does he want the best for me and those I love and care for? No question. But there are many, many, many times when I question, argue, disobey and/or resist His plans.

One of the more famous Bible quotes that springs to mind when I think about trusting God comes from the Old Testament book of Proverbs, chapter 3 verses 5 and 6 which say, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.”

The key part of these verses that jumps out at me is for me not to lean on my own understanding. I don’t have the full picture. God does. He has all the information at His disposal and I should continue to practice allowing His control of my life. All areas. When the time is right He will reveal it to me, and it will be okay. More than likely it will be better than I could have ever imagined.

Which is just like my surprise day that was planned by my husband. This is what we got up to:

I would never have guessed that this would be my day, but David knew what would fill my heart to overflowing. Even though he knows me well, God knows me even better, and it’s safe to trust Him also.

It’s okay for you to trust Him as well without needing to know all the details. He’s got it covered.

Be blessed.